Friday, October 30, 2009 ♥
so many feelings today....
i feel sad, 2E4 have separated...
just like 1E2 last year...
i feel happy because my results hv proved me wrong...
i feel angry because the stupid school is not giving me my future...
i feel weird because of some reason...
为什么？ 为什么每一次当我想做知道一件事，都不会得到答案。。。
我只是希望你能坦白的告诉我。。。
I smiled @ 11:17 PM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 ♥
yo!back in posting....
exams are over shudnt i be happy...
im not okay just for reasons like my results....
dreadful, i failed 2 subjects....
science and geography i actually failed!!!
i deserve it okay this 2 subjects are the subjects tat i didnt bother to study why?
on the same day on geography, there is home econs i really wan to take home econs so i studied for tat instead. i only read through it and what i got was a failing mark of 48...just hope conbined marks will pass....
science was the last day tat we have the official subject exam, i was really tired....
no one could help me in science at home...
no tutor, no sister to help...i have to study on my own without any help....
i failed as u can see on the result...45 the 5 marks is so critical...i need biology
im gonna fail the whole conbine marks for science...
not going to break down and cry which i noe is totally useless to do....i will stay strong look on the brighter side tat i actually managed to pass the subject which i always feared...
told my results to my parents...
they did not scold...did not encourage, just a smile on their face....
what does tat mean?
i dunno maybe trying to tell me tat they knew it?
maybe trying to encourge me to do better next time too much maybe i dunno...
but i shud be happy tat i managed to get 3 As not A1 but A2 is gd enough for me....
i have deproved, i dunno wad happen the confident in me have faded away after leaving e2 class i dunno why...really...it might not be the class it might be my mental mind set tat i have become stupid....
or maybe true enough having fever causes me to have brain cells damaged and i hv become stupid...im not sure...
after this exam i really understand wad ppl mean by is hard to face the truth....
is hard to face the truth tat my results deproved a lot, is hard to face the truth tat the hard work i really put in in some subjects actually help but some not....
i tried my best already...to friends tat have done well tat hv think that u did ur best with no regrets u are the best already:)
i won someone tat i always wanted to win in one of the paper in a particular subject happy in tat actually haha:) sisters u noe who the person is...
I smiled @ 6:17 PM